Smiling can ease the pain for a day.

But you always have to deal with your demons 

another day. 

I dream in color
Now I sleep by your side
What once seemed unclear
Is now vivid and bright
You’re the man of my dreams
Of this I am sure
It is crystal cut clear
And nothing but pure
Thank you for your love
What you’ve done for me
Is tucked me up safely
And set my heart free

Everyday I see your smile,

everyday I hear your voice,

everyday I feel your hugs.

But these are only in my memories,

I wish I could have one of your hugs right now,

I wish I could see that cheeky smile,

I wish I could hear your voice telling me its okay.

But its not okay!

 Every day that your not here is another miserable day,

I have to remember everything that happened on the 17th of January 2010

just so I dont delude myself into thinking your coming back!

I have to remind myself your gone :(

we all need you Matt, you made us all smile.

You were always there for me when I needed you.

You were always the happiest person to be around,

and you were always the one person who could put a smile on my face.

Everything has gotten harder and everything isn’t the same as it was.

I hope your looking down on us all, and looking out for us.

I wish I could of been there that night to stop you from getting in that car,

 but life is cruel and doesn’t work that way.

I love you matty,

your in every thought and dream I have.

I miss you.

I  Love you cuz.

he holds me up when I cant stand

and he keeps me smiling 

when I cant. 

Little girl lost with sad and lonely eyes. The world will never know the the pain I hide inside. Then one day I stumbled upon a pretty desert rose. It changed my world forever as the love inside me grows….Little girl no longer lost with sad and lonely eyes. I died and came back better now there’s no more need to cry….When your faced with hardships never give up hope. Just remember you’ll get through it..even pretty roses has its thorns.